CONFESSION! How About You?

So, I have a confession!  Does that make for an exciting start to a blog? Anyway, I confess that I sometimes struggle with..... body envy. I might be the only one, but if I venture a guess, I am not alone.

As I mentioned yesterday, I was going to be leading (my second ever) kickboxing class. Overall, it went well and I believe everyone got a great workout. Our FXB owner was there to support and supervise, and I know that bottomline each person learned the proper techniques and left a sweaty mess; however, I know that I can do better.

After class, no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't shake that frustration and disappointment. Pretty soon that nitpicking seeped over into other views of myself. As I helped with the next two classes, it was hard to not notice the other maintenance members and instructors who are skinnier, prettier, in better shape, you name it.

NOW, before you think I have zero confidence, anyone who knows me well would tell you that I have lots (maybe too much at times). So, if I struggle with this, what about the person who really has no confidence or who has never been told they are good looking or capable or just plain great?!

Let's face it, we DO notice others and it's hard to not compare. Sometimes, comparison can even be a good thing. Healthy competition or workout buddies that push each other (for me, my friend Jen) are a GOOD thing. That makes you stronger. Despite being a part of the 'Gen Ys' where "everyone is a winner," I still feel it's okay to have a winner and loser. BUT, friends, what I am talking about here is different.


I was reminded yesterday that it is not okay to put yourself down or beat yourself up. We are each unique and beautiful in our own ways. When you start focusing on everyone else and everything you are not, you won't see YOUR STRENGTHS and your growth.

So, my challenge today, focus on your successes! Write down everything you have done this past week that makes you proud. Don't look at your shortfall or where you wish you were.

In the Farrell's eXtreme Bodyshaping program, you start in a 10-week program with fitness tests held at weeks 1, 5 and 10. This allows for baseline results and then a chance to see your improvement throughout the session. Yesterday, I saw my partner for week 5 testing. It has been around two months since I had seen here as we are in different classes. I, literally, did a double-take when I saw her. When I gave her an enthusiastic compliment as I could hardly believe the changes, she shared that she just couldn't see it. Sometimes we are so close to our own gradual change, that we do not see it. OR perhaps we are too busy looking around at others to notice the amazing person within.

Thanks for letting me confess to you and sharing in this transformation journey with me. I am doing this and YOU CAN TOO! Make it a Level 10 Day!